Masks, A Poem

I'm back with a new poem! I am quite sure that this will be one of the last poems I'm going to include in Dauntless, and honestly this poem is one of my new favorites. It focuses on the lies that we as humans often try to hide behind, and how, like a mask, such things cannot remain hidden forever. 

What a paradox we then find ourselves in,

That with great trepidation, and bated breath,

Parade about us falsities wrapped in human skin.

So far gone into darkness, so deep in lies,

Have masks melded with flesh and bone?

Despite our desperation, have we become what we despise?

Yet we continue to reject that which will bring salvation,

Choosing ignorance instead, a blind faulted trust,

Failing to bring the consequences of our actions into consideration.

We predictably exude that which we want others to believe,

We present our plethora of masks, display them for all to see,

Hiding the venom that eats us alive, prohibiting us from being free.

The vile lies of humanity will always be revealed,

Masks fade, darkness flees in the presence of the light,

Never does evil, in all its influence, remain concealed.

For what can stop the power of noble ideas?

Truth writ with blood and ink, lived for, died for...

For all of humanity, God yearns to show us who He is.

For a mask does not hide intentions forever,

It will often reflect the user's dubious intent,

How clever we think we are, fighting a worthless endeavor,

Truth is a mirror, it shows us our flaws,

But, if we uphold the light with courage,

We shall see we stand for a mighty cause.

The Battle for Hope in a Hopeless World

Hope.

For some, this word is considered to be synonymous with ignorance. Others regard it with shining eyes and poetic praise, and yet, there are those who view it as a four letter word among the circles of the 'intellectually minded'. While these categories are indeed generalizations, for I wouldn't be so bold as to state that there are not any variances in opinions and beliefs. However, we often fail to recognize the power such a small word can hold, as well as the influence it holds over many.

You might be wondering why I chose to write on this topic. After all, I am a very busy college student who often writes more for academic purposes then recreational. Such facts do indeed dictate my writing to a degree, but I also believe in writing about things that matter to me, and this topic is one that I believe needs to be expounded upon.

Hope is powerful, and can be used as a mighty weapon for good. Through hope, nations have risen, and corrupt governments have toppled. Through hope, ideas have spread, and false philosophies have been disregarded as such. Through hope, Jesus walked the earth and showed our fallen race salvation through His sacrifice. These are just a few examples of how hope has forever impacted our world, and how it continues to do so.

Yet, hope does not exist without opposition. As much as we'd like to believe our world is good, we are all too aware of the darkness that fills our existence with trials and tribulations. This darkness is overwhelming, and has an insatiable appetite for destruction. Every human being struggles in an invisible fight with this darkness, for surely it's goal is to eat us alive from the inside out.

Have you ever felt empty inside? Has that emptiness been so damaging that you've sought to fill that void with anything and everything? And yet, even after all our attempts to heal ourselves and bandage our wounds, we still are left with the dull ache that never leaves. I'm sure you've been told, as have I, to "have faith, hope, etc" by well-meaning friends and family. I'm not saying that we shouldn't seek those things, but if we are not going to the true source of real hope, we will never achieve the goal we so desperately long for.

Even though many would argue and disagree with me, I am confident in the fact that true hope is found only through Jesus Christ. Hope found through Him is the hope that topples evil regimes, destroys false beliefs, and raises one's confidence so they can make it through the darkest of days. I know that personally, if I didn't have hope through Jesus, I would have fallen in despair many years ago. The world is a vile place, and the enemy is vicious in his attacks on God's children. Whether you realize it or not, we are immersed in a battle that far surpasses that of any human battle past, present, or future. We can't see it with our natural eyes, but we can see the effects of this war in very physical ways.

We feel it, we see it, and we live it. We feel the dread and hopelessness of a fallen world, we see the wars, terror, and divisions of human nature, and we live in a torn society ripe with sin. Even one of these things is enough to bring one's spirits down and sow seeds of anger, fear, and even depression, in some cases.

Simply put, without Jesus, there would be no true, lasting hope. If we have no hope, then we have no drive to live meaningful lives. Hope is the spark that sets our hearts ablaze, and without it, it would be nothing but dead, cold ashes. Even if you feel like you've lost hope, remember that with Christ, the fire is never extinguished, and it will always burn brighter after adversity. Through darkness, the light shines even brighter, and thank God that hope never dies!

Detoxing the Poison: A Q&A with Christian Solo Artist Sarah K. Thorne

For the past ten years, my closest and dearest friend Sarah has stood beside me through the trials and tribulations of life. A true friend and sister in every aspect of the word, she has played such a pivotal role in the creation of my book series that I am confident it would not exist without her. 

When she is not geeking out with me over my novels, Sarah is a talented musician, and has long desired to release her unique, raw, and pulse-pounding music to the world. Finally, at long last, that time has come. Entering the scene with a true explosive bang, Sarah recently revealed her first masterpiece to the world, a single entitled "The Poison in Me". 

Beginning with a haunting instrumental intro that is entirely unique for a song of it's genre, The Poison in Me quickly transfers to a heavy melody, where Sarah displays her incredible skills with the guitar, as well as production. The lyrics are incredibly deep, and even though they are sparse, they leave one thinking...and that is exactly the effect she intended for it to carry.

For some, the song might come across as abrupt and dark. For it certainly wouldn't be categorized as a 'normal' contemporary Christian song. However, even though Sarah loves God and honors Him through her work, her intent was to reach the hurting, broken, and lost, not to entertain the found. Instead of rambling on and on about this amazing song, I am blessed to have been able to interview Sarah about her new single, which I have been graciously allowed to publish here. So, don't take my word for it, hear about The Poison in Me from the artist herself!

(Q&A session begins below)

Elizabeth: Sarah, can you tell me about about your project, and your heart behind it?

Sarah: "After All" is my solo music project, which basically means that I do everything from writing the lyrics and music, performing what I've written (playing all of the instruments and doing all of the vocals; arranging the song structure), to production (mixing, mastering, editing, and crying). I also listen to my own music until I either hear angels singing or I hate it. Ha. Anyway, I wanted to start a band growing up but never had the opportunity to do it... so I tried for years multiple times to launch my own music as an independent artist. 

Those attempts flopped several times over. I never felt like I really had a message or a purpose for connecting with people. Then, life happened. After graduating high school, I went through two of the worst years of my life, including a battle with clinical depression, crippling anxiety, and even being suicidal...honestly, I lost myself in that. But I was still writing songs. I wrote my first single, "The Poison in Me" in one night, and I knew I finally found my message: to help other people who were going through the same pain I was and level with them without the Christian cliches and "feel good" stuff. That's what "After All" is about: being real, owning your story, and having the courage to tell it.

Elizabeth: That truly is a powerful testimony, you certainly understand and relate to those who are hurting similarly. What is your goal with After All beyond the release of The Poison in Me? Where do you see it going in the future?

Sarah: Honestly, I'd love to be a professional touring artist for a few years before settling down and starting a music school and recording studio where I can help other young musicians live their dream.

Elizabeth: That's incredibly impressive! What I find remarkable is that you don't simply want to make it big and bask in that fame; you want to help others who are hurting like yourself. What do you want to do with his school/ministry, and how do you see the poison in me jump-starting that?

Sarah: "The Poison in Me" was incredibly well received, which actually astounded me, and I think with the right marketing and advertising, it could reach a lot of people. It's already receiving some attention in the Christian rock industry around the U.S. which blows my mind. The song is also showing people what my skill set is. Not many people seem to take a 21-year-old female guitarist seriously... if anything, they assume I'm the next Taylor Swift wannabe. This song shows that not only do I have the ability to write and play metalcore, I can also produce. Hopefully those are talents that will translate to running a successful business. 

Elizabeth: You certainly have a very audacious talent! Especially since I've been on this journey with you for many years, I can personally attest to how far you've come. God has definitely given you the strength He knew you would need for the battles ahead. With that being said, what is the message of your upcoming album, and what are your goals for it? Did anything in particular inspire you, and what are your plans for The Poison in Me now, after such a successful release?

Sarah: I'm in the process of writing my first album, I've pretty much written all of the lyrics for the songs I want to include, the hard part now is just putting them to music. That's what's gonna take the most time. The message for it is going to be about recovery and resetting. Just like re-breaking a bone that doesn't heal correctly, the first half of the album is going to be intense, angsty, and dark, as I delve into my own pain, and try to identify with others. The second half is going to be more therapeutic- there will be lighter and more optimistic themes throughout.

This song if the first chapter of  story, and my album is the book. The whole point of my music is to come to terms with the plot twists in my life, and music and literature were two big things that helped. What really helped me process my emotions beside listening to (probably) unhealthy amounts of metalcore, was your (Elizabeth's) book series, and a particular scene that features the struggled of a character I identify with. This character basically goes through hell, and what he goes through is pretty much the metaphoric mirror of what depression feels like. It really gave me a way to cope, because I could make depression into something more tangible.

As far as what's next for "The Poison in Me", I can't say. That's really up to the people who enjoy it, who buy the song, buy the merch, who tell their friends and raise public awareness. 

Elizabeth: I am truly humbled that my story has impacted you in such a deep way, my heart's desire has always been to reach people from all walks of life, and encourage them through my character's stories. What I think is most intriguing is the open, honesty you communicate in your music. As you well know, I focus on such themes often on my blog, and my books. Not only are you refraining from sugar-coating depression and other battles we face, you also show that there is hope. How has your faith in God helped you through this journey, and shape your music?

Sarah: I was abused and hurt by members of the church, so if anyone had a reason to walk away from their faith, I did. I can empathize with people who have been mistreated by Christians. Thankfully I grew up understanding there was a difference between God and His followers...if I hadn't, I probably would have fallen headlong into carnality. For a while, I had a really hard time trusting God and won't lie that sometimes I still do. But overall my faith in Christ has carried me through.

Elizabeth: Faith is never an easy road, regardless of where you're from or what paths you have traversed in life. You had every reason and opportunity to turn away from the faith, and despite that, you didn't. I know you battled it...we all do. But God gives us the strength we need to fight our battles, no matter how great they may seem. We never are promised an easy road, but we are certainly promised victory, even if we can't see it right now. And speaking of that topic, if you were able to talk to a young fan, or even someone in our own age group who is hurting and questioning life; what would you say to them?

Sarah: If I were able to talk to a younger fan or a peer who was struggling, I wouldn't try to butter them up with platitudes about things "getting better" because if I were real, I'm still kind of a mess. But I would sit there with them and listen to them and help them find practical tools for living a life of purpose despite pain. Hurt destroyed my dream before it gave birth to it, and trials can bring out the worst and best in you. I want to be someone people can relate to, because I'm just like them, and I haven't arrived. We are all in this together.

Elizabeth: And because you've experienced this, and despite all the odds you are moving forward in your life, making music that is open, honest, and yet still shows a clear window to the saving grace of Christ, what would you say your underlying message is for your album? And in closing, how can people find your single, as well as where to learn more about you and your message? 

Sarah: My underlying message is it's never too late to recover, someone is never too far gone, and it's 100% okay as a Christian to be honest. I tried to take the approach of the Psalmists when crafting this album, which I'm hoping will be finished by early 2018. Those interested in purchasing "The Poison in Me" can find it on iTunes, Amazon, and Google Play. It is also on Spotify. You can find After All on Facebook and read more about the mission and ministry aspects of what I do. For anyone who would like to donate to After All, I recommend contacting me directly through my Facebook page for information on where donations go. After All seeks to not only be a music project, but a mental health movement, advocating awareness and treatment in the Christian community. Anyone can be an activist for change. 

Elizabeth: And that is just amazing, thank you so much for taking the time to share your heart, I pray continued success over you and your ministry!

(End interview)

As she so eloquently stated, Sarah has an amazing heart and vision; seeking out the hurt and helping them find healing through Christ. Her music is truly unique; I've often found inspiration for my own books through her lyrics and sweeping scores. I highly recommend her music, it is incredibly deep and insightful, as well as chocked full of raw talent.

Please check out this amazing single today, you won't regret it!

Here are links to purchase "The Poison in Me"!

iTunes: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/the-poison-in-me-single/id1278153677

Amazon:https://www.amazon.com/The-Poison-in-Me/dp/B07596RF4M/ref=sr_1_8?ie=UTF8&qid=1505275055&sr=8-8&keywords=the+poison+in+me

You can also check out After All's Facebook page at: https://www.facebook.com/sarahafterall/

New Beginnings: A Poem

Wow, I can't believe that I'm already in my second week of classes! Time really does fly by...and in honor of the excitement I've felt and the desire to pursue my dreams, I wrote this poem entitled "New Beginnings". It's a challenge to live out your dreams, and to refuse to bow to mediocrity.

Who ever had the audacity,

To say that joy is impossible?

Such a statement is an atrocity,

To a heart that is unstoppable.

I don't want to write,

Another little rhyme.

But why can't I fight?

Is that such a crime?

Who told you to silence your tongue?

Why has society said they've had enough?

When was it such an error to be young?

Now passion is met with a flaming rebuff.

Who said you didn't have a voice?

Are they too afraid you'll say something right?

We're treated as if we don't have a choice,

When we really have an advantage in this fight.

But who wants to hear my perspective,

When they've already drawn their lines?

The enemy well knows his vile objective,

Don't believe you were born for the sidelines.

Sometimes it takes fire to burn the old,

A forest needs the ashes in order to grow.

Oh, what would happen if we're actually bold?

Eyes filled with fire, and hearts aglow?

Don't dig up the seedling for it's lack of leaves,

Before you're so quick to accept your ending.

Faith isn't easy, but God is with one who believes,

That an empty slate signifies a new beginning.

Dauntless: A New Kind of Book, and a New Poem!

I'm back to poetry, after being too busy to post any of them! I try to balance how many poems I post vs. other subjects and more traditional blogging, but any time God gives me a poem that I truly love, I want to share it! This particular one is entitled "Redemption's Song", and the inspiration is both drawn from my story world, and our own. It will be one of the poems in my small book of poems I'm going to publish, which will feature some of my favorite pieces over the past few years. 

The idea of actually publishing my poetry in book form is a fairly new concept for me, so this is bound to be a very intriguing journey. My poems aren't exactly considered 'normal' Christian works, not because I don't want to focus on the truth in God's Word, but I want to truly dig deep into the human heart and mind, and seek the truth from a far grittier lens. I feel that many people have either been hurt by the church, or their struggles largely misunderstood by Christians, and I don't want to add to that. I'm not condemning the church or saying that all Christians are like that, but I won't be in denial and foolishly state that such things don't occur. 

With that being said, I am titling my new book, "Dauntless: Musings of a Fierce Mind". It won't be terribly big, and I'm planning on placing a small description alongside each poem, where I will share my heart as to why I wrote each piece the way I did, and so on. There will be many poems in the book that I have not previously posted, and will follow a small themed narrative. Who knows, maybe I'll even add some art if Createspace will allow it! This will be a self-published work, and something I'm releasing solely of my own accord. I will be posting regular updates on Dauntless's publishing process, as well as sneak peeks regarding cover art and interior design. 

I truly hope that you will want to come along this journey with me, because I certainly can't wait to share my heart through the lovely art of written word! Without further ado, here is "Redemption's Song"!

Onward, we ride fearless into our destiny, 

So young, hearts burning oh so bright. 

Into the night so dark we cannot see,

Untouched by the wars and the blight...

Dauntless, we chase what we cannot find,

We strive to grasp the legends and the lies.

The stories and expectations in our minds,

Of a vile battle that we strive to despise, 

Fearful, when we face the realization,

That life fails to be a grand bed of roses. 

Then we encounter great trepidation, 

To fight that evil that so mightily opposes. 

Tested, we stand at the edge of the chasm, 

That our choices, for good or ill, will bring. 

Emotions and hearts a conflicted spasm,

As we try to hold to the truths of our King.

Questioning, we begin to feel the doubt, 

That creeps inside our ragged hearts. 

Desperate to fight it, we scream and shout, 

As we fight to dodge the enemy's darts. 

Learning, we long to see, to understand, 

What poisons our hearts and our souls. 

Can we ever bring healing to this land?

Can we discover the hidden loopholes?

Healing, as we limp forward with a prayer, 

That someday, our bodies and hearts will mend. 

Eyes fixed on the horizon, for a savior, 

To fix the bloodied errors we've penned.

A New Semester, New Beginnings!

Hello all! I apologize for the brief hiatus, as I was moving back to Liberty University for the fall semester (yay!), and after all the moving in, unpacking, finding my classes, etc, I'm finally back to writing!

Already, God has answered so many of my prayers, and has truly blessed this semester. And to think, it's only been about a week, and I've already stepped into an environment that fits me like a glove. The day I first set foot on this university, I had experienced an overwhelming grace. Once again, I feel that grace, and I'm so grateful for God's love and His wisdom, planting me exactly where He wanted me to be. 

I'll be the first to admit that last semester wasn't the best. Actually, it was the first real major challenge I have encountered in my three years of college. It was a time of trials and change, and even though it wasn't all bad, it certainly wasn't comfortable in any meaning of the word. Despite this, I truly believe that God was teaching me to trust Him, even when nothing made sense at all. In the midst of changing my major, struggling in a class, and feeling very alone; He slowed me His unfailing love. 

Now, I'm back at it again, and this time, I don't even have to worry about the future. God holds my future in His hands, and no matter what trials lay ahead, I know He is equipping me with the strength and knowledge to get through it. I'm sure that I will indeed face challenges ahead, and honestly that's okay, because I believe that trials will further shape me and help me grow stronger! 

Right now, I don't know exactly where I'm going, but I trust that God is directing my steps. I truly pray that everyone reading this finds hope through my testimony, because I'm not talking about myself to bring glory to my name. That belongs solely to God, and I am so thankful for all He has done, and all He will do. 

No matter where you are in life, or what you're fighting, don't ever stop pushing forward. Just when you think you've given your all, God is there to renew your strength! I've found that just when you feel like you're falling into a chasm of purposelessness, that is when God gives you wings like an eagle's, and teaches you to soar. 

Regression: A Poem in the light of the Charlottesville Tragedy

I wrote this poem after the chaotic events of Charlottesville, Va, in an attempt to give word to the pain and anger I've felt regarding the situation. It may not be as encouraging or hopeful as most of my poems are, but I feel it gives voice to the frustrations of many, as well as the anger I've felt regarding the loss of life, and terror that this nightmare has caused. I pray that the truth will be revealed, and that the enemy's schemes will stumble and fall. When we the people become blinded by rage and hate, what good can we truly accomplish? May God help us see this. 

I'm treading on this type-rope of my life,

I confess my actions are sometimes wrong.

Like balancing my hopes on a razor sharp knife,

I promise you'll miss me when I'm gone.

Don't think twice, just justify your actions,

They were going to be wrong anyway.

Can't you see unity splitting into factions,

It isn't long until your whole plan caves.

What were you even trying to prove?

With this bloodied mass facade? 

Get 'em all in step, but can they move,

Under the masks of your traitorous parade?

Blinded, stumbling, singing allegiance, 

Crumbling, bleeding, losing hope.

Fighting for nothing despite their grievance,

All the while tying their own rope.

Darkness swallows the silent screams,

In the end, your actions fade to black.

Your vindictive plots are tearing at the seams,

Helpless, no one can ever mend the crack.

Your words, they cannot break me,

Even when a thousand fall beside. 

Regardless, I have already been set free,

From the sickness that tore me inside.

Your lies can only feed the sheep,

Who blindly follow deception.

What can wake them from their sleep?

Lost, in a war of vile inception.

I pray that light shall be shed,

On this scramble of hatred and rage.

For in vain, have the heroes bled?

Oh God, bring healing to this age! 

I'm treading on this type-rope of my life,

I confess my actions are sometimes wrong.

Like balancing my hopes on a razor sharp knife,

I promise you'll miss me when I'm gone.